Ten years is a long time. Is it? Maybe it is. Maybe it isn't. Who cares? Things change everyday. I remember someone asking me what do you see yourself doing in next ten years. Oh wow! That was ten years ago. And I had no answer to that question. Ten years is a long time I thought. Who knows whether you will still be alive? But I am still alive after ten years. When I ponder upon the question now, I figure that I was pretty right. I had no clue then and I was right about having no clue. I come across the same freaking question today. Where do I see myself in next 10 years? The answer is same. I have no freaking clue.
I have friends who had a clear picture about what they wanted to do in life when they were just fifteen. I used to be shocked, "Are you kidding me? A software engineer? And you think you will be happy? Life has so much to give. Why ruin your life sitting in front of a computer all your life?" And some other guy would agree with me but would come up with some other profession that he wanted take up which was weird to me. I never had thought about anything. And even if I did, I would freak out thinking about it. I couldn't think of anything. I just turned 27 and I don't know what I want to do in life still. I remember I was interested in painting when I was in 7th grade. I gave up because one day I painted the most beautiful painting of mine and in the end accidentally spilled colors over it that ruined the painting. It was so painful that I never touched the brush again. I still have that painting somewhere in my house but I never want to come across it again.
In eighth grade I was the best drummer in my group. It was my passion. I would skip classes to go to the music room in school and play the drums. Soon I was caught bunking classes and was never allowed in the music room again. In tenth grade I bought my first guitar (which happens to be the last guitar I bought till date). My dad convinced me that playing drums would bother the neighbors and it wouldn't be appropriate in the house. I got obsessed with the guitar. I was so passionate that I would play it all night till my fingers bled. Whoooo! That sounded like a song. Oh Nevermind. I realized where my passion was. I wanted to become a rockstar which didn't sound very pleasant to my dad. A year into the new passion it was a passion no more. I was already bored.
Oh forget about the past. You must be wondering what did I do in these ten years. The answer is - I took one day at a time. I ended up in front of a computer which I thought was next to impossible when I was young. But like I said, things change everyday. And things around me changed in such a way in these ten years that computer has become a part of not only everyday life but every-hour life. Nothing can be done without computer. No matter what profession you choose.
The word 'profession' makes me want to answer your one more question that you will realize now that you already have in your mind. What is my profession? The answer is not very simple here. I will let you decide what my profession is and has been for the past several years. After taking up Science as my major in high school, I ended up in a business school for my undergraduate. While in school, I was a home-tuition teacher. Right after graduating, I was a reporter in a business magazine which I soon gave up for a job as a Marketing Manager in an IT company. After a year or so when I have had enough, I gave up the job and did nothing for two months. Then I started working for orphans. To add a twist I gave up my studies in Business and started my master's in computer science. Remember my friend who wanted to become a software engineer? I'm sure he didn't have a curvy path like mine to his Master's in computer science.
I still don't know if I will stick to this profession. I will always be like me. But by taking one day at a time, I am always happy. I have my definition of happiness - "If you are happy today, you will always be happy. If you are unhappy today worrying about the future, your future will be present someday and you will still be unhappy in that present worrying for the next future".
Till next time guys. Cheers.
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